Reasons Why I Like My Shape

As the diet thing isn’t really going that well, and I’ve been told by three different people that I don’t need to loose weight, I have been trying to look at myself a little differently.
The people in the public eye that I find attractive are generally much slimmer than your average person, for example Alyson Hannigan or Angelina Jolie. Of course, I know that they have dieticians and personal trainers, how on earth could I have the time to be that thin.
What I find attractive in a woman, as a woman, is possibly not the same as what men find attractive in women.
The only person I need to be concerned about is my boyfriend. Unfortunately he agrees with me about Alyson Hannigan.
So – what have I figured out so far? Well, that Alyson Hannigan is attractive but that I can never be that thin.
OK. This train of reasoning, I think, is not really that productive. So I have to look at another method.
It was suggested that I should think of five reasons why someone would find me attractive physically. So, here goes.

1. I have nice boobs I have a nice smile
2. I have big eyes
3. I have pretty good legs
4. I have a pert (if large) bottom

Ok, that was easier than I expected. Maybe that’s not something which will help me. This is the trouble, although I know that I have redeeming physical features, I tend to concentrate much more on the things I dislike about myself. To be honest I would really just like to be firmer on my tummy and sides. I am doing a little dieting – but I do need to be careful. Extreme dieting is not a place I’d like to return to(1)
So, just getting rid of the bit that most women want rid of. Joy. You see, I don’t really mind my fairly large bottom. I don’t worry that my thighs are a bit wobbly. I love that my boobs got bigger when I put on weight. My face shape isn’t quite as nice as it was, but I can use blusher in creative ways!
So, in order to make me feel better about myself, we took a digital photo of me looking rough in mis-matched underwear. I’m slouching and rounding my shoulders. Then, just before the holiday we will take another photo of me. Hopefully in the new one I will look better. The plan is that I will wear heels and one of my new sexy bikinis. I’ll pose better and smile rather than scowl. OK, so I know that some of it is about psychology, and that I may look almost the same as before but I’m posing better. That said, if I look better in the picture then I’ll feel better regardless. (I hope)
Also, I am enjoying my new cardiovascular exercise – skipping! I find it tiring, and it also hurts my joints after a while, as it’s very high impact. We do have camping mats, which we use to skip on as this cushions the landings a little. I managed to do 100 consecutive skips last night.

(1) As a teenager (like most teenagers) I had a minor problem with eating. I didn’t – if there was any way that I could avoid meals I would. However, while at university – thanks partly to a good friend and also to my boyfriend – I discovered that I didn’t have to be starving all of the time. That resulted in the me in the picture top right.